BEING A MIDDLE CLASS GIRL

" I WANT TO FLY " , a quote familiar and favorite to almost every person. Everyone, i guess, has a desire to fly, to grow, to achieve what they want in their lives.
I also have one. To outgrow my fears, my negativities, low confidence..
At times, i come across a low self esteem. It's because I belong to a middle class society. It's not being a middle class that disturbs me but what disturbs me is the mentality of the people around me. The negative energy they radiate upon whole society. What I want to say is that our middle class society is still lacking somewhere in this context. People neither want to grow themselves nor they want to let others grow.
There's always a dilemma in my mind. My parents tell me to walk with the society. I do not deny this fact that it's good to be social. But, I am sorry to say only a few are there who understands the meaning of "BEING SOCIAL". According to me, it means to let the society grow and not to bound the whole community with your limitations.
The victims of these boundaries and limitations is none other than a girl. I often look at my mother. She is the one in our family who has to compromise and adjust. Why SHE always do so? I am also not allowed to do so many things. I got job offers from private sector. But I was denied. And what I was told was that 'if it was your brother in your place we had said a yes. But you are a girl, so, we can't allow you.' I cursed myself for being a girl. But i also realized that its me only who has to take initiative. Waiting for someone else would never work. In fact, the day will never come.
I know what looks so easy and simple is really not so. I have the idea of the competition. I want to experience it. At least, I don't want to keep any regrets for myself to dig me in future.
In short
" I DON'T WANT TO QUIT WITHOUT STARTING "